心再坚强也经不起被你一次次赤裸裸的伤害… 

一次比一次伤得深…

此刻的伤口就像从未合愈的伤口因处理不当而发炎，恶化了～ 

再痛也没有比你伤得方式痛…

你想起我了吗？

是你招惹我，抓住我的心让我留在你身边… 可是，太多人在你身边让我不知该站哪… 默默站在后方，远远看着你微笑… 等你想起一直在你身后陪你的我… 

可是，你会吗？ 也许那天在未来… 等你想起我，也许我已放弃，转身离开了～ 

4/10/2013

又有人跟我表白了… 

我不知道该给他什么反应！

我好想告诉他，我有男朋友了… 可是，你却给不到我要的那感觉-男朋友的感觉…

我很在乎你，所以，当你一次次告诉我“不”，让我害怕了！ 

我知道你很忙，身为你女朋友不该这样任性，应该体谅你，可是，我真是很怕！

让我任性一次吧！ 

我们的关系像情侣吗？

情侣之间不是常常想念对方的吗？ 

我想应该只有我们这对是与众不同吧！ 

不常联络，我不找你3天，我们就3天不联络… 连一封简讯都不会给对方发… 

就像冷战那样… 

有时候我会胡思乱想，是不是因为你身边的朋友都有一个跟我同年的女朋友，所以你选择了我？

还是你为了某些东西才跟我在一起？ 

还是你真的爱我？

我真的不懂！ 

21-22 sept 2013

2 days 1 night malacca trip , the very 1st time went for a trip with my boy . Thanks that u put down all ur assignments n came to malacca accompany me just because i said that 2 girls go very dangerous . 

The night walk in jonker walk , whole walk u also hold my hand and protected me well . This is the first time i really felt that im really appreciated that having such good bf in my life . 

I asked u a very stupid question , but u answered me with the ans that i really want to heard . U said u will hold my hand even in neither penang nor other places ,but if meet up ur parents , u wont until we really stable n plan for our future .  It is okay with me . I dont mind , i just dun want people throught im the third party enough . 

Thanks for everything ! 

20/9 之夜

刚刚你的话，还真的有点伤人… 本来我没想过要tag你还是什么的，你却要求不可以，连合照也一样… 

我真的很想问你，我到底是你女朋友还是地下情人还是什么也不是？！ 

你问我为什么不再像以前那样吵着不让挂电话，我对你说了谎… 其实，我也不知道为什么，也许是自尊心不允许我再被你伤害吧！ 

U r juz the same .

原来原来... 是我看得不够切地，所以才会发生今天的事. 

第一次明明站在你的身后却不想跟你打招呼. 第一次因为遇见你后一个人眼红红，因为想起你的冷漠，哭了. 

很傻吧！ 

今后我不会再主动信息你，等你想起我了自然会找我. 也许你不会找我了. 

加油！ 

你是我见过最努力的朋友！ 

只不过我没想到你跟其他一样而已. 

pls dun simple do conclusion by ur own !

I really dun understand why u guys like to make some unrelated thing to me ? He open cases tat is the result of his hardwork , not because of me ! Please la ! He open cases the payments also not come to me , wat for u guys related tat his hard work results with me ?! Gosh ! 

Thus , stop asking me every single time i meet u all the same thing can ?! If not i really will angry n stop appear in front all of u .. Really very hate tat my friendship build on $ ! 

nothing more , sorry !

无助的时候，唯有把自己紧紧抱住，至少那这样不会被人看不起..

u said i had hurt ur family .. ya , im really sorry ! but u think i willing to do tat ? In ur view or mine , i really done that , hurt ur family even u .. Im really very sorry toward u n ur family ..
In my situation , did i done anything wrong ? Nope . bcoz if i dun cancel it , I mayb will lost everything i having now , included my family .. I have no choise to sacifify u n undirectly sacify ur family in the same time .
u said i should told u b4 i cancel it . u also said tat u @ least asked me 3 times b4 .. Every time i also dun want , but the 3rd time .. when i saw ur msg tat time , im late to reply ur msg coz u r on the way . Im force to sign when u said tat . During the duration which i waiting for the policy , i always asks u when can i cancel it , did u take notice ? but u juz though im just joking with u . I trying to tell u every time in indirect way , just u too busy and din notice it . I dun dare to tell u cause u r the most serious guy when u r working whom i never meet before .

I know that u wont forgive me and i lost one true friend , but i hope u will continue do ur best to make all ur wishes and ur family wishes come true soon .. 

Im really SORRY to u and ur family expecially ur parents , Hoong Hoong . 

Sorry , my dear ~

Hoong hoong , super duper sorry ! 

I dun beside apologize wat else i can say .. 

I really dislike the policy , coz the duration was too long for me .. 

I duno when i cancel it will cancel ur rewards @ the same time .. 

I know i very selfish in handling this , but i have to do that for my own good . Really sorry ! 

The reason u angry i really noe . I know how it feel when the hope almost come true , there is something destroy n it wont come true anymore .

Coz u too care n treat me too good , u din even scold me . Never scold me from the begining i know u .. Thanks ! 

Hope one day u will forgive me .